I Got A Feelin'

Miss Samantha,

So sad to hear that Ball Boy has given up. I hope he didn't give up because the chase is over.. if you know what I mean. Maybe him and girlfriend are having a moment and she went all Grey's chick on your ass? Haha. Either way, I'm glad he's gone for awhile. I always knew he was bad news.

So Bartender has come back into my life. I don't understand this one. Normally I can figure out boys, but this one is confuzzling me. He keeps on inviting me for a "beer." I understand that he works there... but is it necessary to invite me (who he's only known for about 6 months) instead of his girlfriend (who he has been dating for 2 years)? Is he flirting or am I just the "friend"? Because I'm pretty sure I could fall for him pretty hard if the opportunity arose. There was even one incident last spring where he invited me for a beer and I had nothing better to do, so I went. He then invited me upstairs to the part of the bar that was closed to play pool. "All the other tables are taken," he says. Ok, so awesome. Except nothing happened and I got too drunk. Then he said, "maybe it wasn't a good idea." Fuck. Get your shit together.

So anyways, I will see him tomorrow for sure since he is working and I have plans to go there for dinner with Cat. We'll see what happens, but what is your take on the sitch? My hairstylist thinks that he is just strange and wants that girl*space*friend, but he is taking it to the wrong level. He shouldn't be doing as much flirtation as he is. But at the same time, if he wanted me to be that friend, he would have introduced me to his girlfriend already. Whatevs.

I keep forgetting about FP. After this weekend, I think that it might be time to let that go a little bit, yet maybe hold on just a bit. I don't think its going to work with him being so far away. I do like him, but being so far away is difficult. Yea....

Anyways, I'm going to go have some drinks! Can't wait to see you!

-Crazy City Carrie