Miss Samantha,
My deepest apologies for the lack of responding... I've been incredibly busy this week with school and work and boys...
I'll start back two posts. Bartender is doing good. I took a little bit of time off for him for awhile. I felt I was getting a little bit ridiculous, and I was seeing him everyday at his bar... yea, that's how often we go there. I was beginning to think that he was thinking I only went there to see him, so I just stopped. Haha. I hadn't heard from him in a few days, and then yesterday he messaged me and we chatted until almost 3 in the morning. He's having the usual "should I marry her or is it time to move on" crisis... because he's been with his gf for so long. So I kind of talked him through it. I told you, I'm going to be the best friend. And I don't know if that's good or bad. I don't want to be the rebound girl if he does break up with her, but I also don't want to pass up on any chances that come my way. So confusing.
Lately, all of my friends and their significant others are starting to talk about getting married, having kids, moving in together, breaking up, etc. I'm so over it. Can't we go back to just going out and having fun without having to talk about what colors we want for our tablecloths? Jesus. Sex, anyone?
FP's visit was pretty great. You're right, we didn't leave the house too much after I saw you that night. He got a little too intoxicated at the game, however, and it really annoyed me. I mean, I was having a good time and all, but I was almost embarassed and just about moved and went and sat with one of my friends who was there. I'm not really sure what we're doing still. Its difficult to do the long distance thing and we only just started seeing each other a couple of months ago. I'm not closing any doors because there are a lot of people out there and I want to make myself happy right now. We're still planning on seeing each other at Thanksgiving. We'll see where it goes. He's a great guy... just shitty circumstances.
There is a new boy at work, I'll call him Gym Teacher. Since I started work there, I've been completely fawning over him. I've been there for 3 weeks now, so I decided I'm going to make up a fake story about a paper I have to write and ask him for his opinions, since he is a very good teacher. So I sent him a message on facebook without adding him, and then he added me... but hasn't responded yet. Not sure what that means, maybe on Tuesday at work he'll say let's have lunch and talk about it? Haha. Crossing my fingers. However, based on my creeping abilities, I've figured out that he's been with his gf (who is super fug) since at least May 2007. It'll be a tough one.
I'm listening to that Sabotage song right now. I agree with you, please don't fall into that trap. You are going to sabotage a lot of relationships, not just your own. Sometimes when telling myself what its doing to other people helps more than telling me just how its effecting me. Does that make sense?
I'm so jealous that Charlotte is living with you! Also very happy that she is staying away from Rover. Of course it'll be difficult.. but what he did to her was super shady and I wouldn't ever talk to him again. And FD... what a cutie... has he moved back to school now? I have an FD of my own here in the city... he's a cutie too, an Accountant, calls me during the boys night outs. Too cute.
As for me, things have been alright. Some crisis days with figuring out school. I'm going to be in it forever. But, I might take some time off and work in a bit. The school I'm working at right now for my practicum is looking for full time staff. Not sure if I could do it this year, but I'm loving the experience I'm getting there, and I really appreciate all the staff and how they are helping me learn and fitting me in. Haha. Tell me how you are doing! Still feeling pressure from Old Boss? New job still everything you'd like it to be? I sure hope so. You're good at that stuff.
Anyways, I could tell you about boys until I have a novel written, so I will leave it at that. I gotta get back to the books. I miss you so terribly, and tell Char I say hi! Take care, love.
-Carrie
