What Goes Around...

Hey Girl,

Your rants are very much welcome. That's one of the reasons I originally chose to move away. I was done with the drama, I hated everyone and I needed to get away.

Obviously you aren't stupid. And obviously you're not going to go out to lunch at the busiest place in town with someone you're sleeping with. Were you out with LongHair (or did we have another name for him?)? Or someone new? And the message was from a girlfriend? Guaranteed... GUARANTEED... this particular girl is completely jealous of your life, your ability to have a relationship with guys, and your current relationship with your HUSBAND! Hello... you're married for a reason. If you didn't want to be married anymore, then you WOULD go out to lunch with the guy/guys you were sleeping with. Girls need to get their shit together!

If I was you, I would have walked up to said texter and straight up said "what is your deal? you need to chill the eff out." That is unclassy, and NOT even a little bit like what a friend should do. Did she at least try to say she was joking?

I feel for you, babe. It's bullshit. Wish I could be there to be your lunch date... I'm coming back to the small town for the Thanksgiving weekend, we can date then :)

I have to tell you a funny story tomorrow after I am done work. You will understand my embarassment... yes... I was embarassed! Couldn't even believe myself...

Until then...
Miss you dearly,
Carrie

papparazzi

Okay i am taking a quick minute to rant! i am rather annoyed at this small town rite now....and curious to understand why nothing is more exciting to the people here then figuring out what the hell i'm doing and with who?!?
i will be the first to admit, i have mentioned my curiousity has been peaked by several boys but i'm pretty sure that only makes my ass human....
So here's the deal...
I went for lunch with a male friend and before the lunch was even over i get a text from a friend asking me "how my date is????" Okay so not only am i insulted because apparently you think i'm a cheat by sending that but secondly- u also think i'm an IDIOT too! Who in there rite mind goes out to the busiest place in town to have an affair??? REALLY!!! Small towns suck!(and the guy wasnt even hot-so should i be insulted by that too?)Augh, i'm too busy with the first two to reflect upon how shallow i am!
LESSON: Just because my ass is out with someone other then a girl does not mean I am sleeping with that guy! And now that i think about it...GET A LIFE all you gossip mongering jack offs!

there....i feel better
Miss you much
Sam

If It Makes You Happy

Miss Samantha,

My deepest apologies for the lack of responding... I've been incredibly busy this week with school and work and boys...

I'll start back two posts. Bartender is doing good. I took a little bit of time off for him for awhile. I felt I was getting a little bit ridiculous, and I was seeing him everyday at his bar... yea, that's how often we go there. I was beginning to think that he was thinking I only went there to see him, so I just stopped. Haha. I hadn't heard from him in a few days, and then yesterday he messaged me and we chatted until almost 3 in the morning. He's having the usual "should I marry her or is it time to move on" crisis... because he's been with his gf for so long. So I kind of talked him through it. I told you, I'm going to be the best friend. And I don't know if that's good or bad. I don't want to be the rebound girl if he does break up with her, but I also don't want to pass up on any chances that come my way. So confusing.

Lately, all of my friends and their significant others are starting to talk about getting married, having kids, moving in together, breaking up, etc. I'm so over it. Can't we go back to just going out and having fun without having to talk about what colors we want for our tablecloths? Jesus. Sex, anyone?

FP's visit was pretty great. You're right, we didn't leave the house too much after I saw you that night. He got a little too intoxicated at the game, however, and it really annoyed me. I mean, I was having a good time and all, but I was almost embarassed and just about moved and went and sat with one of my friends who was there. I'm not really sure what we're doing still. Its difficult to do the long distance thing and we only just started seeing each other a couple of months ago. I'm not closing any doors because there are a lot of people out there and I want to make myself happy right now. We're still planning on seeing each other at Thanksgiving. We'll see where it goes. He's a great guy... just shitty circumstances.

There is a new boy at work, I'll call him Gym Teacher. Since I started work there, I've been completely fawning over him. I've been there for 3 weeks now, so I decided I'm going to make up a fake story about a paper I have to write and ask him for his opinions, since he is a very good teacher. So I sent him a message on facebook without adding him, and then he added me... but hasn't responded yet. Not sure what that means, maybe on Tuesday at work he'll say let's have lunch and talk about it? Haha. Crossing my fingers. However, based on my creeping abilities, I've figured out that he's been with his gf (who is super fug) since at least May 2007. It'll be a tough one.

I'm listening to that Sabotage song right now. I agree with you, please don't fall into that trap. You are going to sabotage a lot of relationships, not just your own. Sometimes when telling myself what its doing to other people helps more than telling me just how its effecting me. Does that make sense?

I'm so jealous that Charlotte is living with you! Also very happy that she is staying away from Rover. Of course it'll be difficult.. but what he did to her was super shady and I wouldn't ever talk to him again. And FD... what a cutie... has he moved back to school now? I have an FD of my own here in the city... he's a cutie too, an Accountant, calls me during the boys night outs. Too cute.

As for me, things have been alright. Some crisis days with figuring out school. I'm going to be in it forever. But, I might take some time off and work in a bit. The school I'm working at right now for my practicum is looking for full time staff. Not sure if I could do it this year, but I'm loving the experience I'm getting there, and I really appreciate all the staff and how they are helping me learn and fitting me in. Haha. Tell me how you are doing! Still feeling pressure from Old Boss? New job still everything you'd like it to be? I sure hope so. You're good at that stuff.

Anyways, I could tell you about boys until I have a novel written, so I will leave it at that. I gotta get back to the books. I miss you so terribly, and tell Char I say hi! Take care, love.

-Carrie

Sabatoge

Dear Carrie...

First off you need to listen to the song title by Kristina Debarge, sorta how im feeling rite now....damn it i hate being such a flirt sometimes! So fall has brought a whole new can of worms out....not sure if its bc the weather is typically what summer would bring but life is crazy.

I need to keep reminding me of all those lessons we called out on those other foolish females (you know the ones we point and laugh at) ha

The song is pretty much what im gonna do if im not careful, i'm sabatoging myself and relationship....remind me again how stupid that is, cause saying to myself hasnt been completly effective yet!

I feel so hypocrital...but alas i love a hot boy that gets my blood boiling!ha And is it boiling...ha

Anyway, Char is moving in soon so i am looking forward to the calm and level headed energy she will bring with her. I need to have that rite now! It seems as tho she is doing good and staying free from rover(since he is such a dog it seemed fitting)lol

I am curious to hear how you are doin tho? How is that crazy city treating you? I am interested to know if you and FP are still hanging on.....

oh forgot to mention that FD is back around...weather changes and he pops rite up....he seems to go into heat when the ice goes in!haha He asked about you....thinks we should both visit him!ha...what a dork, and i totally played it up,lol

catch you later!
miss you so much!
no lessons today

Sam

never say never

Hey Carrie, i miss you so!
How has bartender been? im so curious to see where that leads, you are a good reader of the male species and if you are confused i suspect it is because he is giving you reason to be confused.....remember truck buddy? Same idea and i think your advice was - "call his bluff".....maybe you need to do the same with bartender!? ask him flat out what the deal is? or make the first move(maybe he wants you to be drunken)

How was your wkd with FP? Musta been pretty decent cause i didnt hear from you!hahaha
Talk to you again soon...keep me posted!

Sam

I Got A Feelin'

Miss Samantha,

So sad to hear that Ball Boy has given up. I hope he didn't give up because the chase is over.. if you know what I mean. Maybe him and girlfriend are having a moment and she went all Grey's chick on your ass? Haha. Either way, I'm glad he's gone for awhile. I always knew he was bad news.

So Bartender has come back into my life. I don't understand this one. Normally I can figure out boys, but this one is confuzzling me. He keeps on inviting me for a "beer." I understand that he works there... but is it necessary to invite me (who he's only known for about 6 months) instead of his girlfriend (who he has been dating for 2 years)? Is he flirting or am I just the "friend"? Because I'm pretty sure I could fall for him pretty hard if the opportunity arose. There was even one incident last spring where he invited me for a beer and I had nothing better to do, so I went. He then invited me upstairs to the part of the bar that was closed to play pool. "All the other tables are taken," he says. Ok, so awesome. Except nothing happened and I got too drunk. Then he said, "maybe it wasn't a good idea." Fuck. Get your shit together.

So anyways, I will see him tomorrow for sure since he is working and I have plans to go there for dinner with Cat. We'll see what happens, but what is your take on the sitch? My hairstylist thinks that he is just strange and wants that girl*space*friend, but he is taking it to the wrong level. He shouldn't be doing as much flirtation as he is. But at the same time, if he wanted me to be that friend, he would have introduced me to his girlfriend already. Whatevs.

I keep forgetting about FP. After this weekend, I think that it might be time to let that go a little bit, yet maybe hold on just a bit. I don't think its going to work with him being so far away. I do like him, but being so far away is difficult. Yea....

Anyways, I'm going to go have some drinks! Can't wait to see you!

-Crazy City Carrie